I am an empath. I FEEL things. Too much, sometimes. I assume and imagine and end up hurting my own feelings.
Kind of what I am doing right now. I wish I were tougher. I wish I didn't care.
People can surprise you with how predictable they can be. Or maybe I'm just imagining things again.
Last night I dreamt I was on the moon. I was very alone and afraid to go for a walk. Then I was back on earth and still alone in a crowd full of people.
I wish spring would arrive.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Days and Days
They slowly blend into each other more quickly than I can imagine. Each one brings new discoveries, new joy, new frustration.
(I just now realized what I gave up for Lent, but I'm not telling what it is. Because I may have given it up for longer.)
Today will be a day of laundry, DVR-ed television and hair color. I hope.
The shopping trip with the bestie was wonderful. Funny how now I appreciate things I would once do on a weekly basis (like...go out to lunch and go shopping for ONLY myself).
I've been trying to incorporate color and pattern into my wardrobe. For some reason I am generally drawn to black, white and grey. I used to punch up these colors with sassy jewelry, but I've stopped doing that.
(I just now realized what I gave up for Lent, but I'm not telling what it is. Because I may have given it up for longer.)
Today will be a day of laundry, DVR-ed television and hair color. I hope.
The shopping trip with the bestie was wonderful. Funny how now I appreciate things I would once do on a weekly basis (like...go out to lunch and go shopping for ONLY myself).
I've been trying to incorporate color and pattern into my wardrobe. For some reason I am generally drawn to black, white and grey. I used to punch up these colors with sassy jewelry, but I've stopped doing that.
Birthday tunic. To be worn with black AA leggings and tall boots. I don't think my DH likes this one.
Please ignore my stupid hair. I was wearing a hat.
I also got a strapless, summery dress to wear as a bathing suit cover-up. I don't wear shorts and have yet to find a general skirt length that does not stumpify, so long light dresses are my go-to for summer.
Both of those are from Rue 21...a store that made both my bestie and me feel REALLY old.
I tried on black skinny jeans at the Gap outlet, and LOVED them, but they were still a little out of my price range. Anyone have any suggestions for black skinny jeans under $50?
Bestie and I tried on pretty dresses at the BCBG outlet. I saw a white, ruffly iridescently sequined flapper dress that made me emotional with its beauty. Then I tried it on.
Ew.
We were witness to the MOST APPALLING customer service. If you ever go to that store at the outlets in Aurora...expect the worst. Because the sales girls there were aggressive and rude and committed the sales foul of talking sh*t ABOUT other customers TO other customers.
My goodness.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Today
Inexplicably called in to close last night. Confused.
Wisdom teeth pain.
A three-year old with...ahem...certain potty issues. He woke up early this morning crying for 'a wipe'. Poor kid.
The fact that every photo we see in the media has been retouched. This infuriates me.
My own belly.
These things, for some reason, exhaust me.
Tomorrow morning I will rise with or before the sun to get my teeth cleaned and have a new dentist admonish me for fillings falling out, plaque and whatever else...
Tomorrow afternoon I will be shopping at outlet malls with my best friend. We both need some time together.
Tomorrow evening my family will have dinner with her family. It will be a very welcome break.
The upcoming 30th anniversary of my birth. Trying not to freak out about mortality.
Today I will try and hold it together. Today we are getting new doors delivered. Today I will make the bed. Today I will be a good mommy. Today I will make it to the store for applesauce. Today I will apply generic numbing ointment to my teeth and gums as often as I deem it necessary. Today...I will....
Wisdom teeth pain.
A three-year old with...ahem...certain potty issues. He woke up early this morning crying for 'a wipe'. Poor kid.
The fact that every photo we see in the media has been retouched. This infuriates me.
My own belly.
These things, for some reason, exhaust me.
Tomorrow morning I will rise with or before the sun to get my teeth cleaned and have a new dentist admonish me for fillings falling out, plaque and whatever else...
Tomorrow afternoon I will be shopping at outlet malls with my best friend. We both need some time together.
Tomorrow evening my family will have dinner with her family. It will be a very welcome break.
The upcoming 30th anniversary of my birth. Trying not to freak out about mortality.
Today I will try and hold it together. Today we are getting new doors delivered. Today I will make the bed. Today I will be a good mommy. Today I will make it to the store for applesauce. Today I will apply generic numbing ointment to my teeth and gums as often as I deem it necessary. Today...I will....
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