Ruminations

This life I have now is one that I never expected to have. But now that I think about it, it might be the exact life I am SUPPOSED to have. 


If I had told my 24-year old self that in the next five years, I would be a mom, a wife AND a Lush employee...I would have called me a big fat liar. 


Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like had I not had a baby. If I had gone to college right after high school. If I had told Mr. Smith that I would NOT be his girlfriend. 


I never really knew what I wanted to be when I grew up. I suppose now I am grown, and I still don't know. I do have a clearer picture of what I am SUPPOSED to be. 


We are not just aimless entities floating around the universe. I have always believed this.  We have a path. And underneath all my grumbling and sighing and complaining, I know what mine is. 


And it is SUCH a very different path than what came before it that I still have a hard time coming to terms with it. 


So, to all the moms whose lives took a different path than they expected, I wish you a belated, happy, contented Mothers' Day. 


Namaste, b*tches. 


****edited to add something here, later in the day...
Someone had commented on this post, and I rejected the comment. (apologies, no intention of rudeness, but it is my blog)
Perhaps I should have left it so that the commenter and I could have discussed how I came across vs how I intended to. 
I might seem a little fatalistic, perhaps my sarcasm comes out that way. 
But I AM happy. I love my life. I know that lots of people would love to be in my situation. But my life is totally different than it was even just five years ago. 


It is not what I expected, but far more than I had ever imagined.